Contemplation

It has been 3 months ago when i doubt to spend the rest of 2011 till the mid of 2012 in this country. I abruptly cried when knowing that this is going to be my first independent experience. I ended up in my sajadah and said hamdallah, in the name of Allah SWT.

Till these days, i realize, i start to forget the payback.
Yes, the payback which is to Sholat and Read Qur'an. I started to like this country so much, but i forgot who is the creator of human's mercy and happiness.

Who gives me blessings and Joy till these days.

Who gives me a daring parents and friends till these days.

Who gives me breath and heartbeat, so that I can still be enjoying this short life.

Allah, is the reason that I can be here. It has its power to make something impossible becoming possible. Who realizes that a small town living girl just caught her dreams ? That was nothing except, KUN' FAYA KUN !

I started to read my qur'an yesterday, i found nothing but peace. I felt my heart beat wonderfully. I started to hear Adzan online this morning before doing my Subuh prayer.

and

I found what is a quality " Ibadah "

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, lapangkanlah untukku dadaku, dan mudahkanlah untukku urusanku, lepaskanlah kekakuan lidahku, supaya mereka mengerti perkataanku.

Amin.

Enlighten

" Tir, aku udah capek belajar literature disini, rasanya mau nyerah banget deh. I really want to get rid from that class for sure "

I had that conversation with my fellow AFS student who is hosted in Lake Stevens, Washington. Some of the time, people might just hid in their comfort zone, to abide the fearness of unsustain life.

" Mitha, kita cuman punya 3 bulan untuk adaptasi, kita harus manfaatin 3 bulan pertama kita semaksimal mungkin, termasuk getting used to Literature. Aku tau itu sulit, tapi kita harus berusaha, Mith. Masih mending kita pake Bahasa Inggris as our Primary Language, kalo yang di non-speaking english country gimana, Mith ?

Thank you Tiara Rachmaniar for Enlighten me, still, shallow and selfish I am. I'm starting to learn something wholeheartedly, no matter it's difficult or not :)

Civil Disobedience

I want to show what i have been achieved for these two months of studying literature. I know it is hard and almost impossible if i could make a piece of good writing. On how i could occult the counter arguments and integrate them into a good essays. So today, Monday November 14th 2011, i devote myself of being successfully making a significant progress. This is my Essays upon Henry David Thoreau's Civil Disobedience :)