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Achieving higher level of education has been my goal since I was little. I don't want to only have asssociate degree. I simply want more, simply because I trust my capability. Besides focusing on my academic, I want to be a bussinesswoman. Well, lacking of my bussiness education, I do have my dad and my brother with entrepreneur background, so they will always have my back. Coming from a family who excells in cooking, I'm growing the sense of it. I love to cook, especially baking. My grandmother and my mother don't bake. They love to cook traditional food which what I lack of. So, during holidays, we'd love to cook together, share the knowledge that we have about food, since we have different style of cooking. 

1. Graduated from Medical School with honors.
2. Nailed clinical rotation. Pleased the residents and the attendings. I want the honor to watch amazing operations, or assisting them ( this one is pretty impossible, but, oh well...... )
3. Passed the board exam, take the doctor's oath, I'M A MEDICAL DOCTOR Y'ALL !
4. I want to live up my life, I promise not to tie the knot yet, cos I earn it this far. I want to enjoy all the accomplishment in my life before sharing it with other person. I want to travel as far as I could with my savings, getting wasted ( in a good way, duuuh...... ), and do other stuff I have never done before. 
5. Internship. Well, of course, if you wanted to be a specialist.
6. Work it out! I'm planning to work at a hospital for 2 years and save some money from it for enrolling specialty.
7. Nailed the Admission test for my residency program. Y'all know that Obstetrician Gynecologist is really what I want to become. Please if you happened to read this part, say "amen" to this :D Thank you!
8. 4.5 years of residency completed and I'm becoming an OB-GYN
9. Working in the hospital as a fresh OB-GYN
10. Continue for being a consultant in Reproductive Endocrinology and Infertility ( this one focuses in In Vitro Fertilization ) or Maternal - Fetal Medicine.
11. Own a "calorie friendly" bakeshop next to my own-built-maternal clinic. I also want to add Yoga Class for the pregnant women which will train their muscle during in labour. 
12. I want to be an intern in a short period of time in WHO, focusing about maternal care
13. I also want to earn a Ph.D focusing in Maternal Health from Yale University, United States of America
14. To be honest, becoming a sexologist is a spin off aside being an OB-GYN.
15. I want to be a speaker in any International Medical Conference.
16. I want to do the ROUND THE WORLD TRIP !
17. THE LIST IS ENDLESS AND I JUST WANT TO TYPE OTHER 100 THINGS I WANT TO DO AND BECOME......................................................

You guys probably realized that I haven't listed " Getting married with the loved one and have beautiful and smart kids ". Yea, I WANT TO GET MARRIED SO BAD! But, looking up on myself, I just don't know when. To be honest, I'm just scared that I have to start another chapter of my life with other "human being". I'm scared that my marriage will be screwed up, and I'm also terrified that I will be so selfish to achieve many things that pleased me which will put my family aside. Especially when I have newborns and my career is rising up like crazy, can I manage both simultaneously? beacuse I don't want to have a nanny to take care my kids. I want to make my kids strong and independent, even when their mother is not around. Besides that, I'm just scared of being myself this ambitious, it's just hard to find a perfect husband that will accept the way I am, I think, I behave. There are still many husband who don't allow their wife to work. Imagine that I asked my husband that I wanted to enroll residency ? Even me myself, I'm just not sure. Actually, there are bunch of list actually that scares the shit out me of starting a family.  BUT, I DO WANT TO BE SOMEONE ELSE'S WIFE though :D

Anyways, thank you for reading it. I'm aware that this blog is "dusty" due to the lack of commitments to publish routine posts.