Abundant Emotions in May

Heran, so in these days, I have been trying to publish most of the postings that I keep putting off. Yet, I always end up of being gloomy and distracted. I have been feeling so sad yet emotional. This feeling bugs me everynight, and everysecond when I try to look up on my pictures during my stay in Marengo. School, Friends, Crush, Parties, Exam, Sports, Food, Changing Hostfamilies, Misunderstoods, Bad Tempers, and so on, those are bittersweet memories. I know, another people got so much what they wished for, traveling, get gadget for free from hostfamily and achievement for certain competitions or from school. Pernah terbesit untuk iri, kesel, kenapa gak dapet kesempatan yang sama. But the bottom line is, Why you have to be jealous ? It's really fortunate for a such a small-town-living girl to compete for getting this opportunity. Masih beruntung diberangkatin, masih beruntung dapat surat dari Bina Antar-budaya kalau aku dihost di Amerika Serikat, masih beruntung granted for my J-1 VISA. 


Here, I discovered a lot of things that I never tried before ; I can paint with watercolor, I can play soccer, I can be straightforward, I can make a slapstick joke, I can make Egg Benedict and.................I can do Calculus - although not being the best in the class, but I really don't care whatsoever.

Banyak pertanyaan yang terbesit juga, dulu, hari pertama aku sekolah, aku selalu down, setiap jalan di senior hallway, semua orang pasti nganggep aku strangers, well memang, aku ini strangers. Sempet depressed, gimana caranya bisa used to people in this school. Gimana caranya untuk ngobrol dan bisa ketawa. Sampai mikir, bisa gak ya ketawa ngakak sama kayak yang aku sering lakuin di Indonesia.


May 15 2012. Bisa dibilang hari terakhir aku sekolah, although I have to take finals, but, spent the last day with seniors, seeing them in hallway, calling their name, joking with Ally, Al, Nora, Hannah and Becky, getting free food from Cassi, hiding Adam's lunchbag, cutting the line to Specialty lunch :P, and so on. But the good thing, I got a lot of pictures in my last day with them, the teachers asked me whether we could get a group picture. In Calculus, which is my favorite class with my favorite teacher, we were spending the class with just socialized to each other, I got the chance to have a chit chat with people who rarely talk to me, and how they said they would miss me a lot. And I SWEAR, I SAW MANSFIELD EYES WERE BOWLING AFTER WE GOT A GROUP PICTURE. Well, He's my favorite after all, despite the fact that he's married, has 1 daughter and 9 month pregnant wife. I will miss him a lot, and the calculus class also advance biology the most.

This morning, I have to return my beloved Calculator, I'm gonna miss her so much. Redundantly, I slept with my calculator last night, since the fact that I could not afford to buy ( it's around $83 ) and I wouldn't ask my parents to send me money to buy it.

My stay in Marengo is amazing, it has its ups and downs, and I never know what would happen tomorrow. My stay is a gift and I never know what it is unless I discovered it, it's like a box of chocolate ! :)