Contemplation

It has been 3 months ago when i doubt to spend the rest of 2011 till the mid of 2012 in this country. I abruptly cried when knowing that this is going to be my first independent experience. I ended up in my sajadah and said hamdallah, in the name of Allah SWT.

Till these days, i realize, i start to forget the payback.
Yes, the payback which is to Sholat and Read Qur'an. I started to like this country so much, but i forgot who is the creator of human's mercy and happiness.

Who gives me blessings and Joy till these days.

Who gives me a daring parents and friends till these days.

Who gives me breath and heartbeat, so that I can still be enjoying this short life.

Allah, is the reason that I can be here. It has its power to make something impossible becoming possible. Who realizes that a small town living girl just caught her dreams ? That was nothing except, KUN' FAYA KUN !

I started to read my qur'an yesterday, i found nothing but peace. I felt my heart beat wonderfully. I started to hear Adzan online this morning before doing my Subuh prayer.

and

I found what is a quality " Ibadah "

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, lapangkanlah untukku dadaku, dan mudahkanlah untukku urusanku, lepaskanlah kekakuan lidahku, supaya mereka mengerti perkataanku.

Amin.