Self Reflection

In fact, aku sering ngelamun di kelas in case of kalo udah bete sama perbedaan bahasa yang signifikan banget. Kadang-kadang, jiwaku tuh berasa lagi makan ayam kremes sambil minum es teh, tapi badanku disini, di Marengo, Amerika Serikat.

Sering banget kebayang sama rumah, kangen sama semua orang di rumah, kangen temen temen, kangen pacar, kangen mamang sate padang, kangen semua hal yang berbau Indonesia. Kangen main engklek, main kasti, kangen sama weathernya yang panas panas gitu.

I won't say if I were homesick now, but i just feel that i'm kinda sick with everything that burdening my thoughts.

Kayak harus bikin essay, paper, baca buku literature, yang aku rasa keseharian-ku tuh gitu gitu aja. Kayak hidupku disini cuman sekitar sekolah dan peer. Ngerasa sedih banget, presentasi baru 2x, ngerasa banget kemampuan bahasa Inggrisku belum cas cis cus yang bisa dibuktiin kalo lagi diskusi pas pelajaran American Government, sering mumble terus suaraku yang baggy gitu. I always put a big effort to make myself better than yesterday, but still there are so many obstacles which confine me for not showing the real me.

I still figuring out to get out from my cage and see the new world.

reflection in American Goverment class